I had been working on project Phoenix since the days of its inception, which was more than a year ago.
It was indeed dear to me, so much, that I could not get myself to leaving it and join another organization, 5 months back.
The project has come a long way since then, and has 11 developers working on it, full time, including me.
Once the base that I was building was finished, the time came to get the others moving.
At this point I was offered role in a team that would comprise of team leads of various platforms and the manager. The aim of the team was to "design" the project from this point on.
I was a developer, not a lead, and it would have been an honor to be a part of this 'team-0-leads'.
Now, I must admit that I am blowing this whole thing out of proportion, since there is nothing so formal here. Everyone is involved at all points during a project.
After the prompt refusal to be in the team, I asked myself "Why did I not want to part of the design team?" Was it because I was afraid of becoming an outcast? No way.
Was it because I was not sure of being a contributing member of the team? No. I think I am smarter than most of them!! he he he!
Then what was it?
The refusal happened because I was not done doing something yet. Was not syncing with evolution.
It had been like this for me - I saw this girl, I was infatuated by her. That crazed feeling transformed into love. I was ready to start having a relationship. (Not to mention, all this happened in 2 days!!)
I wooed her. She took her time and finally gave in. We were in a relationship.
NO, the next step was not getting married. I was kicked on my butt!!.
Nevertheless, there was evolution here.
So basically I was thinking to myself, why did I refuse the to be part of the group. And the answer came one morning when I was downloading what I had uploaded the previous night.
It was because I wanted to continue coding and be closer to the machine rather than a notepad to take down the minutes of the meeting.
So there you have it, I was syncing with evolution.
